I am a creeper. A lurker. A sit-in-the-back-and-wait-for-somebody-else-to-ask-the-question-I-want-to kind of girl. I've been that way for most of my life, and although people who meet me would never guess I have social anxiety, it is real and I do. This is not a character trait I am proud of. Certainly not one that I want to pass on to Elena as she blossoms into a young woman. I want to teach her confidence. I want her to be heard, to contribute, to express herself. I want for her so many things that I worry I won't be able to teach her adequately because of my shortcomings-my anxieties. I've realized that I need to work towards being a better version of myself so that I can be that example to her.
So here I am today, coming out of hiding to share my voice. So that maybe one day my little sunshine girl will know her mama as someone who had something to say and said it, even if no one wanted to listen.
I love reading blogs and there are a handful that I regularly keep up with. Today I've decided to officially follow them and be an active participant in the blogging world. Now that I am a stay at home mom, preparing for a huge move to a place where I know NO ONE, I'm looking forward to blogging as a way to connect and share with people. So, here goes this girl, out on a limb, ready to say whatever it is I want to say. I'll start with thanks for stopping by :)
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