Two Pink Lines

God is good.
This happened yesterday.

Very, very early.
3dp5dt.
In infertility speak, that translates to 3 days past a 5 day transfer, or 8 days past ovulation for a normal baby making mama.
I tested + at 3dp5dt when I was pregnant with Elena, when all 3 embryos had implanted.
Makes me think that maybe Macaroni and Cheese both decided to snuggle in.
Or maybe one of them split.
Or maybe it's just one strong little babe.
In this moment though, I am pregnant.
And I cannot stop thanking God and praying for this pregnancy to be a healthy and strong one. 
I also cannot stop peeing on sticks.
And pulling the most recent test out of my pocket to stare at it and make sure that beautiful second pink line hasn't disappeared. 

I know most people wouldn't believe it's possible to actually experience symptoms so early, but when you are so hyper-aware of what is happening in your body, it is certainly possible. I know I love to stalk the Internet when I'm in the dreaded 2 week wait to analyze my symptoms or lack thereof.  So, I'm gonna share what's been going on since my transfer.

I also promised myself that I'd document this journey, whatever happened, for the sake of telling my story.  All of it.

1dp5dt Symptoms

Mild twinges and tightness in lower abdomen.

A few moments of mild cramps, almost indetectable.

Strange dreams.

2dp5dt Symptoms

Emotional and sad. Cried a good, hard cry.

Hungrier than normal.

Ate my favorite soup and got nauseous out of nowhere.  Ran upstairs and vomited.  Felt fine immediately after.  {I've never had morning sickness with either of my previous pregnancies}

3dp5dt Symptoms

 Took test around 11am- negative.

Another night of strange dreams.

Increasing stretching uterus feeling.

Heaviness in uterus.

Gut feeling I was pregnant.

2nd HPT 7pm-faint, faint positive.  OMG! 

4dp5dt Symptoms  

 No new symptoms.  No sore boobs.  No nausea.  

Peeing more than usual.

Uterus stretchy feeling.

Some mile crampy twinges.

     

    One constant symptom 

     Overwhelming gratitude.  

I have a more thoughtful post in my head on being pregnant again.  On this incredible blessing.  On giving my baby a sibling.  About sharing my mama love with another and the paralyzing fear that invokes.  My mind is full of things I want to share but I'll save them for another day.  

Goodnight, friends.  xoxo